Filling a Bottomless Cup
Nothing will ever be enough again. There is a hole inside of me where everything drains out. Time. Energy. Memories. Joy. The hole bears...
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Anna Sweat
- Aug 15, 2022
- 4 min
Progress in Grief: Five Years Out
I still don't understand how this is my life. I've had five years to adapt to what some would term my "new normal" since Evelyn, our...
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Anna Sweat
- Jun 20, 2022
- 6 min
The Wound
I imagine myself at every age, every phase of my journey, as a fully realized version living inside the me of today, like a series of...
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Anna Sweat
- Apr 6, 2022
- 5 min
Making Peace with the Light
In The Before, I was afraid of the dark. I struggled to embrace the prickly, difficult feelings inside myself—anger, despair, shame. I...
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Anna Sweat
- Mar 1, 2022
- 4 min
Another Birthday Letter
My beautiful girl, Your birthday is only days away. I haven't written you in some time. I can't say why. I walk around with my head full...
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Anna Sweat
- Dec 9, 2021
- 3 min
The Nothing Inside
Something is missing. Inside of me. That I don't have a name for. It's hard to describe a thing without its own word even when it is...
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Anna Sweat
- Oct 12, 2021
- 6 min
The Anger Trap
One of the hardest pills to swallow when a child is lost, is the reality that we are not in control. Not of the world at large. Not of...
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Anna Sweat
- Aug 9, 2021
- 7 min
The People Who Can Take It
I don't know how to write this post without pissing some people off. I keep reminding myself that I'm writing this one for the broken...
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Anna Sweat
- Jun 30, 2021
- 4 min
Good Things
I'm used to pain. When it comes to emotional agony, I have become a consummate professional. I keep a stash of tissue on hand at all...
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Anna Sweat
- Mar 24, 2021
- 6 min
Tell Their Story
Saturday morning I stood on a campus I haven't visited since my freshman year of high school with an oversized picture of Evelyn in my...
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Anna Sweat
- Jan 28, 2021
- 7 min
Anatomy of "A Sign"
I've been waiting on a sign from my daughter. I asked for one a couple of days ago. This happens periodically when I feel the crushing...
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Anna Sweat
- Dec 24, 2020
- 4 min
The Women in the Fog
It's hard to admit that there are things that have materialized in the wake of Evelyn's death that I am grateful for. It's hard to admit...
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Anna Sweat
- Nov 9, 2020
- 3 min
Backbreaking Straws: Living in a State of Perpetual Fragility
Last night, my husband asked me if he could make a particular purchase. I spent the rest of the night crying in the bathroom. I won't go...
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Anna Sweat
- Aug 31, 2020
- 5 min
When Someone Else's Crisis is Your Cakewalk
It is a hard fact of child loss that everything else pales by comparison. Every other loss, pain, suffering feels somehow less than what we'
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Anna Sweat
- Jul 19, 2020
- 4 min
When the Hits Keep Comin'
I bet, if I took a poll, that one hundred percent of bereaved parents feel they should get a pass for the rest of their life.
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Anna Sweat
- May 18, 2020
- 5 min
Lean Into Your Grief Bubbles
Grieving a child is smothering. It is a thick, hot kind of grief. Never ending. Like drowning in a gravy boat.
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Anna Sweat
- Mar 23, 2020
- 8 min
This Is Not the Worst
In a rare departure from the norm, I am actually writing this post for non-grieving parents and people, rather than for those who have...
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Anna Sweat
- Mar 13, 2020
- 5 min
Grief in a Pandemic: Resources for Troubling Times
Currently, the world is facing a global health crisis as novel coronavirus seeds infection from one continent to the next. I'm not...
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Anna Sweat
- Feb 13, 2020
- 4 min
No Greater Love Story
Once, I told a friend—a fellow grieving mom—that I would tear the universe apart searching for Evelyn. "What would you do if you found...
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Anna Sweat
- Jan 14, 2020
- 5 min
Acclimating to the Light
Imagine you've been living in a very dark room for a very long time. There are no windows in your room, no openings to let the light in....
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