The Point of Separation
Six years in and my life has become a constant quest for balance. Every day beginning from a new, immutable point I must use to calculate...
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Anna Sweat
Jul 11, 20238 min read
Grief in an Empty Nest
I thought I was avoiding this post because I had nothing to say on the subject. But sitting down to my laptop this morning, I realize...
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Anna Sweat
Feb 18, 20233 min read
Filling a Bottomless Cup
Nothing will ever be enough again. There is a hole inside of me where everything drains out. Time. Energy. Memories. Joy. The hole bears...
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Anna Sweat
Aug 15, 20224 min read
Progress in Grief: Five Years Out
I still don't understand how this is my life. I've had five years to adapt to what some would term my "new normal" since Evelyn, our...
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Anna Sweat
Jun 20, 20226 min read
The Wound
I imagine myself at every age, every phase of my journey, as a fully realized version living inside the me of today, like a series of...
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Anna Sweat
Apr 6, 20225 min read
Making Peace with the Light
In The Before, I was afraid of the dark. I struggled to embrace the prickly, difficult feelings inside myself—anger, despair, shame. I...
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Anna Sweat
Mar 1, 20224 min read
Another Birthday Letter
My beautiful girl, Your birthday is only days away. I haven't written you in some time. I can't say why. I walk around with my head full...
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Anna Sweat
Dec 9, 20213 min read
The Nothing Inside
Something is missing. Inside of me. That I don't have a name for. It's hard to describe a thing without its own word even when it is...
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Anna Sweat
Oct 12, 20216 min read
The Anger Trap
One of the hardest pills to swallow when a child is lost, is the reality that we are not in control. Not of the world at large. Not of...
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Anna Sweat
Aug 9, 20217 min read
The People Who Can Take It
I don't know how to write this post without pissing some people off. I keep reminding myself that I'm writing this one for the broken...
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Anna Sweat
Jun 30, 20214 min read
Good Things
I'm used to pain. When it comes to emotional agony, I have become a consummate professional. I keep a stash of tissue on hand at all...
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Anna Sweat
Mar 24, 20216 min read
Tell Their Story
Saturday morning I stood on a campus I haven't visited since my freshman year of high school with an oversized picture of Evelyn in my...
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Anna Sweat
Jan 28, 20217 min read
Anatomy of "A Sign"
I've been waiting on a sign from my daughter. I asked for one a couple of days ago. This happens periodically when I feel the crushing...
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Anna Sweat
Dec 24, 20204 min read
The Women in the Fog
It's hard to admit that there are things that have materialized in the wake of Evelyn's death that I am grateful for. It's hard to admit...
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Anna Sweat
Nov 9, 20203 min read
Backbreaking Straws: Living in a State of Perpetual Fragility
Last night, my husband asked me if he could make a particular purchase. I spent the rest of the night crying in the bathroom. I won't go...
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Anna Sweat
Aug 31, 20205 min read
When Someone Else's Crisis is Your Cakewalk
It is a hard fact of child loss that everything else pales by comparison. Every other loss, pain, suffering feels somehow less than what we'
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Anna Sweat
Jul 19, 20204 min read
When the Hits Keep Comin'
I bet, if I took a poll, that one hundred percent of bereaved parents feel they should get a pass for the rest of their life.
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Anna Sweat
May 18, 20205 min read
Lean Into Your Grief Bubbles
Grieving a child is smothering. It is a thick, hot kind of grief. Never ending. Like drowning in a gravy boat.
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Anna Sweat
Mar 23, 20208 min read
This Is Not the Worst
In a rare departure from the norm, I am actually writing this post for non-grieving parents and people, rather than for those who have...
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Anna Sweat
Mar 13, 20205 min read
Grief in a Pandemic: Resources for Troubling Times
Currently, the world is facing a global health crisis as novel coronavirus seeds infection from one continent to the next. I'm not...
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